Monday, January 18, 2016

Closing time

So gather up your jackets, move it to the exits
I hope you have found a friend
Closing time
Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end


                                                                      -Closing Time by Semisonic

The tickets have not been purchased or the paperwork filed, but I have decided I will be leaving Japan the first part of May.  As they say, all good things must come to an end, and after almost two years here, it is about time to say goodbye.

 It wasn’t an easy decision – there is still so much I want to see and do.  I have fallen in love with this country and the idea of leaving is difficult to accept.  Riding the train, walking down the street, shopping for groceries, I think about all the little moments I will miss.  Watching the clouds snake like smoke around the mountains makes me sad to leave such natural beauty.  Clicking through news articles from home about racism, violence, and politics makes me long to stay here where I feel safe.  And spending the afternoon in Namba, Umeda, Tennoji, or any crowded neighborhood, watching the sea of humanity ebb and flow around me, makes me cringe to return to a quiet, rural existence.  The people, the food, the culture – I have loved every second of my time here and part of me really does not want to leave.

But another part of me says it is time.  There will always be things left undone, but now it is time for the next big adventure.  It is time to process all the experiences from these two years.  To take stock of the changes I have gone through physically and mentally.  To apply what I have done and learned.  This was always meant to be a journey of self-discovery and growth.  I feel I have achieved that in spades.  I have gathered the pieces, now it is time to put the puzzle together. 

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